At
the end of September I mentioned I'd switched meds from Sertraline to
Citalopram, both antidepressants.
I
wasn't feeling much of an effect from the former, so I moved to the
latter. After what I now realise is a quarter of a year, and after
changing the times of ingestion from midday to the morning, I decided
to let my prescription run out.
I
didn't feel much of a lift from Citalopram either, but what I did
feel was very tired. I'm constantly falling asleep at weird times,
struggling to keep my eyes open in work, and feeling a lack of
motivation to go to the gym. Hence, earlier this week I decided to
book another GP appointment.
The
earliest they can fit me in is Saturday 12th January. Half
a fucking month away.
The
advantage of this stop-gap is that by the time I get to see my GP the
Citalopram should be thoroughly out of my system. I can start afresh
on something else.
The
reason it's taken me so long to make the decision to come off the
drug is that I've had problems with sleeping my whole life. If I have
a bad night's sleep, it's normal to me. But if I have an elongated
string of bad nights, coupled with repeatedly crashing into REM in
the middle of the afternoon- something I can get away with on my days
off- my body will eventually tell me that something I am putting in
it isn't helping.
Despite
still occasionally fitting in a gym session, or doing weights at
home, my body weight is still climbing through the mid 80kgs
(possibly 13'5! FUCK!)
I
still feel the same negative emotions about myself that I did before
I entered therapy in 2014, and way before I ever started taking
depression meds. So, do I switch to some third drug? Or do I come off
them altogether and see what happens? I guess my GP will know.
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