HMRC still want £416 off me

Over the last few Saturdays I've detailed my struggles with trying to get the government to grasp that I have brain damage, memory difficulties and depression, and that these are having certain lifelong effects on me.

HMRC have looked into last year's tax credits award and have decided that I owe them £416. After tax, this is about half my monthly wage. It's not a small sum to me. I've asked them to look into this again, and they are sticking to their story.

Added to this, I'm finding conflicting stories as to whether I'm eligible for tax credits at the moment. ATOS only awarded me the Mobility element of PIP and not the Daily Living component. I understand it's this latter element that would allow me to claim tax credits if I work less than 25 hours a week (I'm on 22.5).

After a meeting with my manager, and a look into the tax credits calculator, it appears like I should be eligible for a certain amount. By the 5^th April, it appeared, I should have heard back from HMRC.

Well, I have. They still want the £416. Apparently I forgot to reply to a letter from 25^th January last year, a 'TC818A' (I have no recollection of this, but hold in mind the condition that makes me eligible for benefits in the first place).

What a shocking state of affairs. I phoned HMRC numerous times and not once did they mention this form. I would have written it down and acted on it. So, I now have to pay this 3-figure sum back, at a time when I'm making my wage, plus the smaller mobility element of PIP. Before PIP was introduced and my DLA was stopped, I was on both elements of DLA, and WTC with the DLA element. I was eligible for free prescriptions and dental treatment. Now I'm not eligible for anything other than the element of PIP.

This is happening in 2018.

I think there may be other letters that I've misplaced or not acted upon, and this is an issue I've had my whole life. I can't keep up with the stream of formal letters that, largely, don't make any sense to me. I've applied for assistance from a few departments in relation to this, but I expect that because I work in local government and I speak well, and because I've never been arrested, that application has probably been ignored.

Things are up and down in work at the moment but on Tuesday I'll update my manager and see if he can make sense of this. If you think you can advise (layman's terms, please) tweet me.

No More Chocolate... Again. Result!

Cheeseburger and chunky chips in The Ram's Head in Delph #saddleworth #pubgrub awesome. Well deserved after 4+1/2hrs gym work

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Back in February I promised to eat clean until either:

1. I beat my horizontal dumbbell fly record
2. I beat my dips record
3. I beat my 10-minute run record
4. I bring my weight down to under 80kg (I was at a horrendous 85.5kg)
5. I beat my bench press record

By Maundy Thursday, before Good Friday and the Easter binge, I still hadn't eaten any chocolate or takeaway food. I'd been good. I managed to get to the gym early to get some endurance work in. I spent four and a half hours hammering the treadmill and the rest of the equipment for the above exercises. I walked into the gym weighing 80.4kg.

I did 5 10-minute runs, each one increasing in speed by increments of .1kmph. The last run was 10.1kmph.

My bench press record from around September 2014 was 103.75kgs, the total amount that was available on the seated chest press in my previous gym. The current gym's seated chest press only goes up to 90kg- I did this on the Maundy Thursday.

I used the Smith machine for the continuation of the bench press work. I couldn't find the record I had for this particular piece of equipment, but this time I got up to 57.5, way below my seated chest press record. I was gassed by this point, though.

My dips record was 70, from January this year. I managed to match it.

My horizontal dumbbell fly record I couldn't get anywhere near. I think when I beat this PB last time, in 2015, I was going into the gym before work while it was quiet, on numerous days, just to hammer this movement. The free weights and benches are the most popular part of the gym, so it's really hard to get on these, hence it being such an old PB.

After my final run I weighed in at 79.7kg. Then, logically, I went to The Ram's Head pub in Saddleworth with the family, and devoured an absolutely stacked cheeseburger and chunky chips, and washed it all down with two Southern Comfort and Cokes. So there's a good possibility I'll be above 80 again. Of course, I don't own any scales and the gym is closed for Easter, so who knows.

I've kinda got a taste for healthy food, though- let's hope it stays. I wouldn't mind seeing my abs again at some point in my life.

Milton Club Permanently Closes, Neighbourhood Temporarily So

What the hell is happening to Manchester nightlife?

First, Deansgate members bar The Milton Club closes down. It'll be missed, but a small club with a capacity of a couple of hundred can't get by if it's only busy on Saturday nights for 4 hours. Their one-off events were superb (singers and DJs who dropped out of the limelight making guest appearances are fond memories of mine), but their regular weekend nights were bland, with a lot of violence. Their drinks were stupidly overpriced, hence the poor turnout. It'll be missed.

Next up, Spinningfields bar Neighbourhood loses its licence after a scuffle on the door- the M.E.N write-up suggests the customer was at fault here. (It wouldn't surprise me.)

I guess Artisan will be a little busier over the next couple of weeks. It'll be a while before I get a chance to check, though, as my weekend's full and Spinningfields isn't on the cards. Easter weekend starts with a bang- or a beat drop, perhaps. Manchester Cool Bars is dropping into Impossible for Mic Check Karaoke- a hip hop open mic evening.

Do you fancy busting a rhyme or spitting some bars? Now's your chance, in one of Peter St's coolest venues. I know I'll be getting on stage, so if anything come watch me make a dick out of myself.

I have nothing for the Friday, but Saturday night will be one of the most explosive nights of the year when Britain's Anthony Joshua puts his IBF, WBA and IBO titles on the line. Also offering up a belt is New Zealand's WBO champ Joseph Parker. Prediction: Joshua by TKO, round 10. Both fighters are currently unbeaten. Both have their belts on the line.

Manchester Cool Bars are meeting in Genting Casino to watch this go down. Photo ID required.

Despite the closures, Manchester is still a great place to go and incidents like the aforementioned are still rare. Come out to the Meetups this weekend and you'll see what I mean.

Chipped in with Sport Relief... then spent the rest of the weekend drunk

6 hours and 5 hours of spinning later.
Job done. pic.twitter.com/pxwk78UtbA

— Andy Hall (@Handyall) March 23, 2018

Andy's Man Club Oldham helped out with Sport Relief on Saturday with a Spinathon. I jumped on the bike before and after a gym session. So close to my target weight now. It was also great to be involved in a worthy charity 'helping more than 50,000 people, in the UK, living with a mental health problem.' They also provide anti-malarial drugs and maternal, neonatal and child health funding to Africa.

Our @sportrelief 12hr SPINATHON is going well at #OldhamLeisureCentre we are over half now! Great support from our customers and staff! pic.twitter.com/ohNLeh2444

— OCL (@OCLactive) March 23, 2018

Then I undid all the hard work by spending most of the weekend drinking cocktails.

Orange and sage sling #impossible #manchester #cocktails #nightlife

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Great gats-bee. Impossible #manchester #nightlife #cocktails

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Stage and radio #manchester #nightlife #northernquarter

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Stage and radio #manchester #nightlife #northernquarter

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Stage and radio #manchester #nightlife #northernquarter

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Manc Streets mural in Stage and Radio #manchester #nightlife #northernquarter inspired by the poster for Scorsese's Mean Streets

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Mango margarita in Favelas #manchester #nightlife #cocktails #northernquarter

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Firebird in Hula Tiki #manchester #nightlife #cocktails #northernquarter

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Found dory in Hula Tiki #manchester #nightlife #cocktails #northernquarter

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HADUKEN! #cocktails #manchester #nightlife #northernquarter

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This was supposed to be a bourbon mac daddy in Terrace #northernquarter but they had no bourbon, so used JD. Took about 10 mins and 3 people to make. Was nice, but watching them make it was like an episode of Columbo. #cocktails #manchester #nightlife

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Vincent van sloe in Terrace #northernquarter #manchester very frothy. #cocktails #nightlife

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Credit to bars Stage and Radio, Lost in Tokyo, Hula Tiki, Favelas, Terrace and Impossible, which is possibly the only bar inManchester with a driveable bumper car.

Impossible Manchester

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Does Online Shopping Build Confidence?

Ebay. Amazon. ASOS. We're all familiar with the concept of online shops, be it the overarching aforementioned brand names or smaller niche shops that you stumble across when you're Googling a specific product. For example, I once bought MMA ear protectors (to stop the build-up of cauliflower ear during grappling) from an MMA shop specifically selling martial arts training gear. The rise of internet shopping might be a normal part of our lives now, but how would this build confidence?

There's two types of internet purchase. There's the type that you can get at any time. Want to do a Tesco shop? It's there for you, and if they usually have something (sweet potatoes, for example) they'll- more often than not- have some in supply. Then, there's the short-term offer. A store might have a supply of a certain signed book, or a fashion item of which they have 20 pieces. These will sell, and- importantly- they might not be restocked.

Let's say you go onto ASOS and you see a jacket you like. You can put it in your saved items, along with any other product you like the look of. Maybe you'll buy it later, you think. You carry on browsing, and then the rest of life- work, sleep, family- takes over and you forget to actually make the purchase. You come back the next day, and guess what? They've sold out. They've only got a couple in but they're two sizes up from yours. Why didn't you just buy it when you had the chance?

Because you didn't act.

Perhaps, like me, you're a hesitant, non-impulsive individual. You weigh things up a lot. You overthink, instead of acting immediately. For me, this is a confidence issue. I've noticed this with ASOS, but more recently I've discovered Depop. Depop is a mobile phone app that I would describe as being a mix of Amazon and Instagram. It's a platform for people to show off what they are selling, and a place for buyers to find mostly second-hand fashion items. I've been looking for Saucony trainers for a while, but every pair I've seen in store have been extortionate. Hence, why not buy a pair second-hand?

I started using the app to look for size 9 Men's Saucony trainers. I filtered the results to get exactly these specifics, and then I 'liked' a few of the results (there are 'like' and 'save' functions- as of yet I'm not sure the difference). Within days, a few of these showed up as 'sold,' with SOLD written across the picture for emphasis.

I spotted a pair of these Grid 9000 'Halloween Pack' running shoes. I've used this brand before and they were great for fitness, but I particularly like the colours on these.

Typically, though, I put them in my Liked list, and soon enough someone bought them. There are other size 9 Saucony shoes on the site, but none as cool as those.

I didn't act. I ummed and ahhed, and I lost them. This problem I have with internet shopping, and with my own ability- or inability- to act fast. My hesitancy is possibly the biggest problem in my life. I lose opportunities with jobs, with clothes, with women- pretty much every area of my life is tainted. It's time for me to be a little bit impulsive- to throw myself into things and figure them out as I go along.

In Arnold Schwarzenegger's autobiography, Total Recall: My Unbelievably True Life Story, he ends the book by listing his rules for living a successful life. Quote:

2) Don't overthink. If you think all the time, the mind cannot relax. The key thing is to let the mind and the body float. And then when you need ot make a decision or hit a problem hard, you're ready with all of your energy... Back in 1980, when Al Ehringer and I wanted to develop a block at the end of Main Street in Santa Monica, the investors we were bidding against for the property let their worries hold them back... We didn't dwell on challenges but the rival bidders did... they dropped out while we raised our bid, and we got the property... Within 2 years we were able ot convert the lease into a purchase, and our gamble started to pay off; 3100 Main Street turned out to be a phenomenal investment... If you freeze, you lose.

Arnie and Al saw their opportunity and acted immediately, with the intention of sorting out any problems later on.

Let's say you spar in boxing or MMA. Step forward and throw the first punch. Be offensive, not defensive. Let's say you're in a bar and you spot someone you want to talk to. Do it. The worst that can happen is that they are an arsehole, and that's a reflection of them, not you. (Although, it's easier said than done.)

Acting quickly may result in problems, but hesitating ALWAYS will, so bear this in mind when you're facing a challenge- but at least take this route with internet shopping first.

Join us on this Northern Quarter bar crawl!

Retro arcade machine and an amazing American candy collection on display at this funky Convenience Store bar in Manchester’s Northern Quarter . . . . #nq #northernquarter #manchester #mcr #drinkswithfriends #drinks #beers #cocktails #bar #interiorphotography #interiorphotographer #photographermanchester #Cocktailbar #cocktailbars #cocktailbarren #cocktailbartenders

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Manchester Cool Bars is braving the cold this Friday to head to the Northern Quarter to tour a few bars. Organiser Silvia has planned it out- I know it will be the Stevenson Square area which may mean dropping into the Spanish-style Flok bar (I recommend) and hopefully the 1920's style Fitzgerald (also a favourite). We're starting in Brazilian-style bar Favelas. It's supposed to be raining lightly with a breeze, which is a hell of a lot better than the weather we've just had. Don't let the elongated winter put you off!

Progress with memory-related situation

I've been in the same job on the same wage with the same organisation, working the same hours, for a decade now. Recently, due to governmental reforms, I've seen my income plummet after DLA was scrapped and PIP implemented. As a result of this, for some complex reason, my Working Tax Credits were also stopped. I spent a long time on the phone to HMRC trying to find out why this was, to no avail, then I got some pretty clear answers from a Welfare Rights officer. Also, over the last two weeks I've met with my manager, visited Get Oldham Working, an organisation who 'can help you get the skills to secure the career you want,' and I've visited Positive Steps, an 'integrated support services for families, young people and adults.'

Everyone I've dealt with has been hugely helpful. Positive Steps have arranged another meeting with the Citizen's Advice Bureau- hopefully it'll be a day I can do, although in all honesty I'm not sure what I'd be talking about- not much has changed since my last CAB appointment.

Positive Steps also explained:

· Job centre advisors unfortunately only work with people who are unemployed.

· There is a careers fare at Oldham Library on 14 April 2018

· Get Oldham Working are running a Raise Programme which you can get in contact by email. employability@oldham.gov.uk (I've done this.)

In a separate meeting with my manager, we used an online benefits calculator that suggests I should be in receipt of over £200 a month in Tax Credits. After logging into my account it showed that HMRC couldn't deal with my claim online, but that they received something (it isn't clear what) in February. Something is being processed and I should receive more information by the 5^th April. It's probably the letter I sent them asking about why my Working Tax Credits were stopped, and complaining about the horrendous procedure I've been thorough when asking for information.

That said, Citizen's Advice told me that my letter has probably been ignored as it isn't on a 'dispute form,' something NOBODY told me anything about- certainly not anyone at HMRC.

I guess I'll find out after the 5^th. I'm meeting Get Oldham Working again next week.