Saturday, 30 September 2023

I tried CBD for a month, to little avail

CBD - cannabinoid oil - the non-psychoactive ingredient in cannabis, was legalised in the UK in 2018, and numerous companies have capitalised on this. Menwhile, over the last 10 or so years, the taboo around the topic of mental health has eroded away thanks to TV shows, news articles and, sadly, high profile suicides. 

It’s easier now due to support groups, changes to work culture and general discussions that people are having, to broach the subject. With this new openness to discussion around mental health challenges, companies like Cancalm are producing CBD and are advertising it as an anxiety-reducing non-prescription medication. 

Anxiety reduction is the key purported benefit of CBD, but it is also touted as supporting muscle recovery, alleviating joint swelling and improving memory, along with a host of other alleged attributes. 

A month ago, I started taking CBD mostly to see if there might be any changes in my memory. I doubted it, as I’ve had memory difficulties my whole life from an Acquired Brain Injury at birth, and the doctors have always told me that it isn’t going to get any better. So far, they’re right. 

The other reason: social anxiety. I’ve worked hard through NHS therapy to overcome issues of anxiety, particularly around women, and I’ve made some progress. It’s an ongoing project. ‘You don’t know until you try’ is the underlying mentality I had when I started taking CBD, but I never expected there to be any difference. I know what the challenges are that I face and the underlying causes of them. Putting the harmless bi-product of a plant into my body and expecting myself to make peace at this point with my past social mistakes – which is basically most of what I can remember – is wholly unrealistic. The NHS have taught me all they can. If Sertraline, Citalopram, Duloxetine and Mirtazapine didn’t do it for me either, CBD won’t. 

That’s certainly what I’ve found. I’ve not felt much difference. Family say they haven’t noticed any change; neither have colleagues. 

While I did this CBD project I was also, for the most part, working on a photography project too. This involved a lot of standing back, observing, and not being particularly involved in anything I saw. I found this very isolating and the project as a whole brought me down. If CBD was going to do anything to help, it would have been at those moments. I also frequently forgot kneepads, very helpful equipment for photography, so CBD obviously didn’t help my memory either. I probably also for got to take it on some nights, although there’s no way of finding out whether I did or not. 

Some people swear by CBD. I’d swear it’s snake oil.

Saturday, 23 September 2023

Get Fit for the Santa Dash

I’ve got my ticket for the Saddleworth Santa Dash, a 5K run through the hills of Saddleworth, featuring around 500 Father Christmases. 

 

Tickets are available now. £17.50 gets you your pass to run, Santa suit and individual number sheet. 

I gave myself a little break from dieting recently. I’d dipped below 80kg doing the photography project recently, but I expect I’m back above it now. It’s now time to eat properly, get fit again, in time for the race, taking place on Saturday, 2nd December. 10 weeks away. Target weight: 72kg. This is the weight I need to be to get into my suit trousers, I found out some months ago. That said, I’m a lot stronger now than I was last time my weight was that low. Time to ignore urges and stay focussed. I’ve got a 5K circuit in my area that I usually do Sundays. I’ll add a few more of these in. Plus, I’ll up the running I do at the gym, and try and beat my oldest record of 10 mins at 14.1kmph, from 2013.

Thursday, 21 September 2023

Sugar Rush

A canopy of multicoloured fabric and a prism of neon leads us into the main hall of Bowlers Exhibition Centre, where a troupe of rollerbladers and aerial dancers have infiltrated the premises, which in turn are adorned with giant plaster cast candy canes, lollipops and ice creams. It’s a good job – for the sake of my waist, if nothing else – that these aren’t real. They’re part of the display for Sugar Rush, a night of 2000s-era house music acts and DJs. Imagine if Willy Wonka was a house head: that’s the theme tonight. 

 

 

The night, assembled by Andy Kleek of Monopoly Events, is one of a series of events for the people of Manchester Made Me Funky, a society of people, one that started as a Facebook group for house music clubbers who were part of Manchester’s nightlife scene in the 2000s and tonight there’s another great roster of singers and DJs. 

Andy Kleek

 

 Vocalist Cookie, the voice of Freemasons’ 2004 debut hit Lola’s Theme, is first to the stage. 

 

 

 

Next up: Ayak Thiik performs Milk and Sugar’s 2002 hit Stayin’ Around. 

 

 

Kathy Brown follows her, singing Soul Central’s Strings of Life (Stronger on my Own). 

 

 

Lisa Millett is our next House Music diva, voice of Goodfellas’ track Soul Heaven and ATFC’s Bad Habit. 

 

 

 

 

Up next, voice of Blaze’s Most Precious Love, Barbara Tucker

 

 

 

Kimblee from Solu Music sings her track Fade to round off the live PAs.

 

In the audience, I spot Spencer Wilding, Darth Vader in Star Wars Rogue One, and Valerie Wyndham or presenter SoCalVal. I’m perhaps a little overdressed in a shirt and blazer. At one point a bloke asks me if I’m a narc. I’d be a pretty shit one, I tell him, as he’d have just busted me. 

Great to catch up with a few familiar faces from back in the day. Memorable night made great by the singers and DJs.












Wednesday, 20 September 2023

11 Top Nightspots in Manchester – Updated

Deansgate Manchester

 

Way back in 2015 when the Meetup scene was thriving and so was Manchester’s nightlife, I wrote out a list of 11 places in Manchester that I rated the highest. I couldn’t bring myself to knock one off to make it 10. Post Meetup die-off and post-pandemic, many of these places have closed, and the people who I’d visited these places with have largely drifted. Where did I rate 8 years ago? 

Bijou 

This ‘upmarket’ club near the cathedral has now closed. Too many dickheads and plastic gangsters. Female friends I went with didn’t feel safe there. Developed a bit of a rep when TV show Take Me Out sent their dates there, before the Isle of Fernandos was a staple. Was a good place for spotting zed-list celebs and fit birds. 

Australasia 

Spinningfields bar Australasia and its sister venue Sunset – connected by a subterranean walkway - is still trading, still has the class and elegance that the area is known for and I still recommend. 

The Alchemist 

Also still trading, national chain The Alchemist creates great unique cocktails and has since been made over with darker, more intimate tones. Worth visiting. 

The Lawn Club 

This space was only ever meant to be a temporary installation in the middle of Spinningfields, and eventually it did close down, to be replaced with an (also temporary) Alpine Hutte in winter. There is another Lawn Club installation there now, so be fast if you want to try it. Who knows how long it’ll be there. The outdoor area is vital, as the décor is pleasant… and it’s roasting inside. 

Artisan 

Long gone. Shame. Always liked it. The unit remained empty for some years, but has since been occupied by a similarly upmarket outfit. Read on for more. 

Tattu 

Tattu is still going strong, with other venues open now across the UK. Incredible décor and food. 

Sakana 

This Japanese restaurant and bar fell out of favour (particularly after a huge brawl at New year in 16-17). If I recall this happened after they changed the music policy from House to Hip Hop. It’s now a Peaky Blinders bar with waistcoated bar staff and live singers. 

Club LIV 

International celebrity club brand LIV has a venue in Miami, and also in Manchester UK. Obviously, location choices are not based on weather. 

The Manchester UK branch moved from Peter St to a larger Deansgate unit in early 2020. I went once to the new venue. It’s an interesting experience, but only good for celeb spotting. Highly pretentious, and that’s coming from a guy who does admin and hangs around in Spinningfields. 

Albert Hall 

Peter Street’s Albert Hall is still a superb, unique concert venue. Well worth keeping your eye on the varied line-up. 

Milton Club 

Long gone, with the unit now occupied by a branch of London celeb brand Chinawhite. (Their Instagram isn’t easily searchable as the platform believes anyone typing it in is involved with the illicit drug trade.) I’m not a fan of the updated club. Too crowded, too similar to other places. 

Suede 

Now History, and more pretentious, with a higher density of plastic gangsters. MC guy will publicly humiliate the female patrons over the PA system. Avoid. 

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So. Lots of changes, in terms of venues and perhaps my tastes too. Where are my favourites now? Let’s do 11 again, keeping the format! It’s a lot harder to get out these days due to a) the economic climate and b) people being Tories and anti-vaxxers, stances that I just can’t accept. That’s for another blog post. So my knowledge of Manchester bars and clubs is a little dated, but I have still got a list. 1 venue has made it onto both. But here are my choices at present. If you’re looking for a good night out, try these gems. 

1) Flok 

We start in the Northern Quarter, in Stevenson’s Square. Flok opened in 2017 and specialises in Sherry, wines and beers, but has a fair cocktail menu too. Look out for the bank vault room downstairs – seemingly a relic from the original building - for extra seating. 

2) Eastern Bloc 

If you like your music a little harder, next door to Flok we find Eastern Bloc, with German / Slavic vibes, a lot of acid house, bohemian European customers, normally packed to the rafters giving it an old-style club feel. Keep your eyes out not just for the cocktails but the sweet treats behind the counter too. I recommend the rocky road. Sometimes there’s a door fee, sometimes not. 

3) The Fitzgerald 

Around the corner from these two, a little alleyway hides The Fitzgerald, a 1920s-stlye speakeasy playing electro-swing and serving classic cocktails from America’s Prohibition era. Post-pandemic, occasional live jazz and burlesque now punctuate their calendar of events, although I haven’t been in since before COVID. The décor will leave you feeling like you’ve gone back 100 years and landed in Chicago. 

4) Washhouse 

Just outside The Northern Quarter, close to The Printworks, lies what looks like a laundrette. The Washhouse’s front is that of a few washing machines lined up under a phone. Pick up the phone, and a staff member will ask how many ‘items’ – read, people – you have. You’ll be led into the narrow, dark venue – basically just the bar and stools – and your bartender will offer you the menu. After you’ve picked the cocktail, he’ll tell you a little story about each one – its origins, its connections to Manchester, and a little on the ingredients. A unique treat. 

5) Speak in Code 

Down on Jackson’s Row, just off Deansgate near Topkapi Palace takeaway, there’s a sign attached to a wall marked (SiC). It’s not a grammar pendants’ gathering. Speak in Code is a small cocktail bar where each cocktail is identified by only a number. No quirky, smutty names, no hints as to who the cocktail is aimed at. Just a number and a list of ingredients. All this is housed in a rustic location: think bare brick, tiles, polished woodwork and tattooed staff serving delectables over deep house. 

6) Cloud 23 

Half way up Manchester’s iconic Beetham Tower lies Cloud 23, an observatory-cum-cocktail bar. After a queue in the lobby, you’ll be taken by concierge up the lift to the bar and restaurant area. Quiet house music sets the scene, the scene being the entirety of Greater Manchester, viewable from the floor-to-ceiling windows. Great cocktails. Soak up the atmos while you wait to be served. It’s part of the experience. Honorary mention: for a slightly different viewpoint, try 20 Stories in Spinningfields. 

7) Sakku Samba 

In the former Artisan unit in Spinningfields’ Avenue lies Sakku Samba, a Japanese-Brazilian fusion restaurant. I’ve not eaten there but the exquisite cocktails and rainforest-theme décor make for a treat if you’re in the area. Try and get near the windows. You’re only one floor up but it makes a difference. Don’t miss the ground-floor bar too as it may be a shorter waiting time. 

8) Alchemist 

The Alchemist was one of Spinningfields’ first bars, opening in 2010 and undergoing a few refits in that time. Alchemy – the medieval chemical science supposedly used to create gold – inspires the theme of the bar chain, with another outlet on New York St and 20 others nationwide. Cocktail shakers are so last week. Think Bunsen burner, gauze, dry ice... entire chemical experiments for you to (safely) consume from an extensive menu, designed, now I think about it, in the style of the periodic table. Don’t turn up in big groups of men and be prepared to wait at the bar, and whatever the weather you’ll be exposed to some different elements. 

9) Tattu 

Japanese restaurant Tattu can be found right at the back of Spinningfields, almost in Salford. Great for food or cocktails, the large venue is adorned with photos and artefacts of a sailing theme: a huge rope wraps precariously around a beam suspended from the ceiling, blown-up pictures of tattooed seafarers line the walls and a giant, dried cherry blossom sits at one end (this table is particularly popular with influencers). It’s pricey even for Spinningfields, but the Moon Stand Lunch is a fairer deal – 3 plates for £28. The cocktails are incredible creations, both visually and in terms of taste. The quiet house music suited me, and wasn’t an issue for my dad’s hearing aids. Excellent service. Many restaurants have come and go over the years in Spinningfields. Tattu is here to stay. 

10) Menagerie 

As the name suggests, this is a zoo-themed bar and restaurant, although which zoo has a fashion catwalk in the middle I don’t know. Not complaining, though. One table is encased in a giant birdcage. A flock of birds adorn the ceiling. Neon on the walls references animals. As well as a staple range of cocktails, in Menagerie you can expect aerial performances, a range of music and occasionally the odd celeb. Additionally, the bar has been known to host event nights – I was at Charlotte Dawson’s Freda Funk clothing launch a while back with a host of reality TV people. Great fun. People are talkative, and I found them well-natured too. Accusations of snobbery should be taken with a pinch of salt. Which other bar lets you take a selfie in their bathtub?! 

11) Depot Mayfield 

Formerly a train station, then a parcel depot, Depot Mayfield is now a cavernous, multi-room venue perfect for its host The Warehouse Project, a series of house music events. I’ve seen Eric Pridz, Fisher, Happy Mondays, Inner City, K-Klass, 808 State and A Guy Called Gerald in Depot in recent months. Incredible venue with lights, LCDs, lasers and speakers all on point. 

What are your favourites? Which would you knock off from this list?

Monday, 18 September 2023

Tribel House?


 

On the blog: a funky house music night with some superb singers. A list article of the top nightspots in Manchester – updated from some years ago. Further updates on the ongoing Universal Credit situation. 

Who’s on Tribel? It’s another social media platform, status-update-oriented, much like X, Threads and Mastodon. The emphasis on it seems to be left-wing politics, almost in opposition to Donald Trump’s Truth Social site, although with none of the bad publicity. Find me at @matthewtuckey. I’m mostly posting blog links.

Sunday, 17 September 2023

Photography month: review

In order to get a little better at blogging overall, I’ve spent the last few years focussing on specific areas of the craft to improve it – typing, shorthand, screenwriting etc. have all been the subject of a monthly project. Photography has been something that I’ve wanted to particularly focus on in order to develop a little more skill and give the blog a more aesthetically pleasing edge. I looked around for photography groups, but a lot of them cost a fortune and seemed to be shunning smartphone photography, which is the only hardware I have. I watched a tonne of YouTube tutorials advising on smartphone photography techniques, and practised a few different angles etc. I frequently found that a lot of the advice married up with the media training I did at college / university, so it must be right.

The main problem that I faced was that I really wanted something interesting to shoot, something actually happening. I couldn’t really find much. I didn’t see any fights despite hovering around the Peter St area at closing time, I didn’t see any celebs despite hanging around Spinningfields / Club LIV, I listened out for sirens but didn’t see any arrests, I tried to go to the Police Museum but you practically need an invitation, I couldn’t find any launches of any venues or products to attend, and I didn’t see any protests because the Tories banned them. So, what else was there?

You’ve seen it all, basically. Everything worth showing is already on the blog. It was a difficult project to do. Nothing was really happening anywhere – people behaved themselves, There weren’t many arrests or fights, and I can’t quite run fast enough to keep up with emergency services vehicles on the odd times I saw them. But it is done. I said I’d do a photography month in my ‘Before 42’ post, and I did. I found it a tough challenge to complete: not necessarily just the framing and the being in the right place at the right time, but taking on the role of the observer, the guy not involved, dissociating in order to spot good shots. It’s quite an isolating experience.

Plus, in order to get into the nicer places (where you might spot the odd celeb, although I didn’t) you need smart shoes, and when you wear them, you notice when you’re walking around Manchester for hours. Trainers you can get away with during the day. Kneepads are helpful for getting low-down shots, although I’d frequently forget to wear them. I tried to wear black to be less conspicuous, but it didn’t stop one guy asking me if I was MI5, and another asking if I was a narc. I told them both I’d be shit at my job if I was.

In the meantime, I tried to focus my gym work on the things that would help me while shooting: walking, running, chinups dips, gym classes. I’ve not beaten any PBs but I have focussed on endurance rather than lifting heavy. I’m about the same weight.

Not the most enjoyable of projects, and glad it’s over.

Saturday, 16 September 2023

More Hassle with HMRC

Turns out I haven’t been awarded Universal Credit after all the phone calls and emails I’ve made. Help to Claim have been brilliant, it’s just HMRC themselves causing hold-ups, seemingly by not understanding their own system. 

As mentioned in previous posts, my Working Tax Credits were stopped and I was asked to reapply for Universal Credit. I thought I wouldn’t be eligible due to being over the savings threshold, but it seems this rule is disregarded due to Transitional Protection – I’ve been asked to move from WTC to UC. 

HMRC, of course, keep forgetting this, hence no UC payment. This is ironic considering what makes me eligible for all of this is… short term memory difficulties. 

All this has been explained by a lady at Help to Claim, a government advice line. Help to Claim Lady (HTCL) has been really helpful in explaining the situation and speaking on my behalf. There’s been an issue with the calculation. We called HMRC and asked for an explanation, and disagreed with the decision. At this point, The HMRC Worker (HMRCW) asked HTCL to leave the call, which I found very suspicious. The only personal info that was discussed on that call is what HTCL already knew anyway. There was no reason to cut her out. She wasn’t able to rejoin. 

HMRCW told me that my earnings were too high, which is absurd considering, after tax, I just about make 4 figures from my wage. Surely there must be people on UC who make more from their wage than I do? Voluntary support website Housing Systems suggests so. When I first tried to claim WTC in 2008, I was denied because I didn’t work enough hours – the same hours I’m on now (albeit with no Disability Living Allowance). 

It makes no sense.

I sent HTCL an email updating her – she suggested I should get a payment on Friday, yesterday. Guess what…? I haven’t. We’re trying to book another meeting in, but I was in work Friday, then it was the weekend, so I’ll respond to her email tomorrow night, just in the unlikely instance that in the meantime something else I need to tell her crops up. 

What a ballache. Thanks, Tory voters!

Monday, 11 September 2023

Get Ready for the Sugar Rush

House music promotion Manchester Made Me Funky returns for another night of 2000s era DJs and live performances. 

This Saturday, expect live PAs from Kimblee (Solu Music – Fade), Barbara Tucker (Blaze - Most Precious Love), Kathy Brown (Soul Central – Stronger On My Own), Ayak Thiik (Milk and Sugar – Stayin Around) and Cookie (Shapeshifters – Lola’s Theme). 

The last few MMMF nights have been superb audiovisual treats with great set designs, live music and familiar faces from days gone by. This time we’re treated to a candy-themed display. Event organisers promise 'a pure daydream of candy cane trees and candyfloss clouds, escape into an irresistible adventure.' 

Get down to Bowlers Exhibition Centre. Tickets are still available.

Sunday, 10 September 2023

A few photography finds

I think these were just off Peter St last weekend: This weekend was a messy one. But not for me. I also had a wander around Manchester on Thursday, snapping whatever caught my eye. Nothing much was actually happening though.

Saturday, 9 September 2023

Tomorrow is World Suicide Prevention Day

It is estimated that there are currently more than 700 000 suicides per year worldwide, and we know that each suicide profoundly affects many more people. 

The World Health Organisation explains, ‘World Suicide Prevention Day was established in 2003 by the International Association for Suicide Prevention in conjunction with the World Health Organization (WHO). The 10 September each year aims to focus attention on the issue, reduces stigma and raises awareness among organizations, governments, and the public, giving a singular message that suicides are preventable.’ 

There are a number of things we can do to reduce suicide rates. I’m not a medical professional, so I’m not going to act like I’m the voice of authority. That said, talking therapies and groups are an obvious one. Check out Hub of Hope to see what there is in your area. Your doctor is also a good place to start. (Of course, not cutting disabled people’s benefits is an obvious improvement to make. Sadly, some people are okay with these cuts happening and will continue to vote Tory regardless – even when some disabled people die as a result.)

Also, I stumbled across this article about journaling as a means to ward off dementia. I dread to think what will happen to me in 10 or so years when my memory starts fading. It probably already has now. Thankfully, I’ve been blogging since 2006 (on PIASOM since 2008), so most notable events in my life are right here for me to reflect on. I’ve found my blog helps me recall what I’ve done with my life. Plus I have academic diaries dating back to September 2001. 

More psychology finds to come over the next few weeks.

Sunday, 3 September 2023

Paige, Popbitch, Photography

Porn star Gia Paige – ranked 39 on Pornhub – weighed in on Popbitch’s baboon vs badger debate. Non-sequitur of the year: I’m trying to brush up on photography at the moment. I’ve had a few night-time trips to Manchester. I really must get to the Northern Quarter in the weekend daytime soon. I’m really beginning to notice how the role of a photographer separates you from everyone else, dissociates you, leaves you half wanting to be a ghost. You don’t want to be noticed so that the people around you act naturally. It half reminds me of school, not fitting in, speaking to virtually no-one for whole chunks of time. I’ve done a lot of wandering around, and ventured into I think 3 bars this weekend. There’s not much going on though. People are very civilised, on the whole, these days. It isn’t like the days of the 2000s where people would get hammered and leather each other all the time. People seem to know better. Hence, there isn’t much to photograph.

Saturday, 2 September 2023

Does CBD Improve Memory?

 


CBD, or cannabidiol, is known to help reduce symptoms associated with muscle and joint swelling, ease skin irritations, aid in disrupted sleep cycles, relieve tension, and support mental health. So says Peels, and this is what it’s known for the most. Peels also claims CBD is ‘believed to help improve memory function and prevent memory deficits in several ways.’ 

If there are any tests relating to CBD and memory, the high likelihood is that the subjects were neurotypical people – that they didn’t have any particular mental or cognitive condition. I sustained a head injury at birth and have had short term memory difficulties my whole life, so it’ll be interesting to see whether this will have any impact. I’ve not found any trials featuring people with memory issues from Acquired Brain Injuries or suchlike, although I’m sure some exist. 

Experimenting with CBD is something I’ve been meaning to try for a long time. Back in 2019 I attended the launch of CanCalm, a CBD product range based in Cheshire. I dabbled with it a little after that, but my social life was already dropping off due to bad weather and the looming threat of a novel coronavirus doing the rounds in Asia. 

In 2022 I decided it was about time I tried to cultivate a social life again, although this was harder than ever due largely to people not understanding COVID and vaccines. I’ve fallen out with a lot of people. Anyway, that’s for another post. Plus, everyone’s broke as fuck and the bar and club scene isn’t anywhere near as popular as it used to be. People know better than to harm their bodies like we did in 90’-00’s with excesses of alcohol. 

So, in order to provide myself with the social challenges that would typically provoke that anxiety, I need to go look for things happening in the city. Social events on maybe Meetup, Pickle or Thursday

When to take it? Wikihow says that effects take place 30-45 mins after taking it, so I’ll either take a dose just before I set off for a night out or event, or just before bed. 

This project is one of 6 that I set myself after my birthday at the end of July. I’m already working on this photography project, which I’m honestly finding a little challenging. There isn’t that much to shoot, and you’re at risk of people kicking off with you for photographing them. But there’s another issue that I’m noticing doing this project. 

Photography requires you to separate yourself from the scene. By nature, as a photographer you’re an observer, not a participant. So, when you’re looking for incidents to photograph, you’re already somewhat ‘apart’ from people. Some people go out and shoot as a group. I don’t seem to have any photography friends any more. I’ve had a look online to see if I can get involved with others, but most photography groups are hideously expensive. 

Will CBD ameliorate that feeling of isolation? I guess we’ll find out over the next month.