Sunday, 7 January 2018

I uploaded 190 blog posts last year.

Can you believe that? That's more than once every 2 days.

The most-hit post was this one, about boxer Amir Khan being surrounded by girls in club History, racking up 599 hits at the time of writing. He's since gone on to star in I'm a Celebrity: Get Me Out of Here, finishing in 5th place.

In other news, Jenna Jameson liked my reply tweet, although she appears to have deleted the original and I can't remember what it was about. So it makes no sense.

Away from Twitter, house music club Venus has closed down.


I really liked the music and was introduced to some great friends in there. But I had problems with the venue. The door policy was weird- good people were frequently turned away, and steroid-abusing blocky-looking douchebags got in, who then walked around with a chip on their shoulder, getting no-where with the stuck-up dolly birds. The statement claims that it's the licensing hours that have caused its demise. It's not. It's the change in musical tastes, and it's the generation of clubbers who would rather listen to RnB instead of house. It's also the costs- Venus wasn't cheap, but then, few places in Manchester are. Manchester overall is becoming very quiet; even new year was shockingly underpopulated. Money is the issue there.

I wouldn't expect much more than book reviews from me for the next month or so. It's to cold and too quiet, and I'm too poor to do a great deal.

Saturday, 6 January 2018

MORE fines due to disability


I have not got a clue what I am doing.

A few weeks ago, I picked up a prescription and explained to the chemist that I didn't know what to write on the form. I'd previously not paid for prescriptions, but although in receipt of Personal Independence Payment I was not in receipt of Working Tax Credits- it turns out that my allocation of PIP was a notification of a change in circumstances, which in turn the WTC team at the Department for Work and Pensions used as an excuse to stop paying me WTC. I'm still in receipt of PIP, so to be on the safe side, I paid for the prescription. I looked online and it appeared that I in fact didn't have to pay, so I went back to the chemist and showed them my award of PIP on letterheaded DWP paper.

The chemist took this as acceptable proof that I didn't actually have to pay for prescriptions, so they refunded me that money.

Yesterday I got ANOTHER fine, to add to the dentist's fine of a few weeks ago (which is still under review- I forgot that it still needed paying despite this, so it doubled in price). This chemist's fine, to the tune of £51.60, also needs paying. It turns out, having rang the NHS charges helpline, that the chemist misinformed me. I should have paid, and was not eligible. WTC means free prescriptions, PIP does not.

As well as forgetting things due to memory difficulties- the reason I claim PIP in the first place- I frequently misinterpret information and make decisions based on what I think to be the case, but isn't. So the condition that causes me to be poor, which makes me eligible for some benefits, is the same condition that causes me to make mistakes which result in the fines.

I'm pretty sure I've made these mistakes before, (but of course, I wouldn't know for sure.) So presumably, I may get further fines, resulting in the loss of hundreds more pounds. I asked the NHS charges helpline about this- the chemists have apparently misinformed me and I have to pay for prescriptions. WTC was what made me eligible to get this for free, not DLA (Disability Living Allowance, which was stopped a year ago) or PIP (which I've been in receipt of for a few months). Fines are issued by a 'scanner,' by 'spot checks,' so at random the computer will check if people claiming free prescriptions are eligible, and if they aren't a fine will be issued.

A question: Why did the chemist let me claim for free if I'm not applicable? Surely working in a chemist, you'd have to know who is eligible for free prescriptions and who isn't, based on the benefits they say they receive?

The DWP will send me an HC1 form, or an HC2. I don't know which I'll receive, but these relate to health costs. Apparently, once filled and returned, this will give me free prescriptions for 12 months. If I get WTC, it won't be relevant, but if I don't it will 'act as a backup.' They say I should get a decision on WTC soon, after which I should work through the above. There's a 28 day hold on this fine in the meantime.

What frustrates me about this situation the most is that these benefits are there to promote independence and to assist with living costs. They are there to help, but I can't be the only person who needs these who doesn't actually understand how they work. I'm an intelligent enough bloke for most situations in life, but a system designed to help people on low incomes is more complicated than the job that I do, and harder than the treatment I've been through in the NHS relating to depression and confidence building. If you make an honest mistake it will cost you a good chunk of what the DWP give you.

One promising report comes from the Express: 9 out of 10 appeals for dental fines are successful. The article describes how simply 'ticking the wrong box' can result in a £100 fine.

Fines should be issued for people who purposely try to do over the system. If someone is asking for help with something they don't understand, and they still mess it up, the fines should be waived and the support should be put in place. I'm tired of being treated like a criminal.

Thursday, 4 January 2018

#tbt Beermats: Week 11

It's about time I wrote a small note relating to these beermat posts. I've been collecting beermats since I was about 11- maybe longer- and when I moved out in 2010 I scooped them all out of a drawer and into a box, not exactly keeping any order to them. So some of these are from 1993, some from last month. Who knows which? Some expert out there, probably. Not me. Occasionally people comment on these uploads saying which beers they like. I'm a whisky drinker, and I don't drink beer. I love the beermats, though, and years of brewery-based kleptomania has left me with hundreds of ageing beermats, which I figured beermat and beer enthusiasts- possibly like you- would enjoy. The likes and comments suggest people are enjoying the uploads.

In terms of blog posts, I have enough to last me into late summer.












Tuesday, 2 January 2018

Reading and Robb



I've blogged a few times about attempting the splits whilst reading books. As you do. It was a series of attempts to increase flexibility and focus on what I genuinely enjoy- reading, which in turn would minimise time spent on social media and help get through a huge backlog of unread books.

I'd do this by sitting with my legs apart in front of me, wearing socks, with my heels against the skirting board. Where my torso is, I'd sit directly under the doorway of my kitchen and use the door frame to grip and pull myself closer in.

The last time I attempted it- July '16- I got to 1 metre 65.

I'm going to attempt this again. I'll do this for another month, but this time I'll be using Robb, an ointment for 'relief from pain.' It smells like Thai tiger balm, if you're familiar. I'll apply it to the legs, particularly the insides, and see if I can beat the PB. In a month, I'll blog to report on how well it worked. I'll also review the books that I read in the month.

Monday, 1 January 2018

Well, it looks like house parties are the in-thing at new year from now on.

Manchester was certifiably dead last night, but catching up with mates in Manchester's new Roc 'n' Rye bar was fun, with good disco music. Shame we made up about half the people there. With free entry, it deserved to be busier.

Remember Arman Van Helden's You Don't Even Know Me from 1998?


Turns out it sampled Carrie Lucas' Dance With You.


The original disco track was one of many underplayed 70's tunes on the night's playlist. The music and décor were great.

I expect the only busy places would have been the most popular bars and clubs on Deansgate / Peter St / John Dalton St etc.

A quiet January awaits. No meetups planned. The only event in the upcoming week is the Andy's Man Club takeover of Halifax Parkrun. Mental health support group Andy's will be marshalling the weekly run on the 6th in Shroggs Park. I'll be there cheering on the runners and dishing out info with other members at 9am.

One last thing: you might have noticed that I've removed the content warning from my blog. The content may still be adult from time to time, but I skipped the warning because people were having a hard time getting past that page- after clicking 'I understand and I wish to continue' that screen would refresh instead of going to the actual blog page. So be warned, it might get adult here and there, but at least you'll be abe to read it. Any other blogs on Blogger.com had that problem?

Sunday, 31 December 2017

With mere hours left of the dumpster fire that was 2017...

Let's look back on the last week.

I had a great Christmas with the family. I also got my arse kicked twice in 2 sessions of bowling, but you know what? I enjoyed it all. The pre-sertraline me would be pissed off at how shit I was at playing, and would correlate it to my abilities to do literally anything in life- but the new pilled-up me enjoyed being with mates regardless of my scores.

I finished reading The Dirt, Neil Strauss' biography of rock group The Motley Crue, an epic, detailed timeline of the four members' lives, first released in 2002. Rock music and it's image don't particularly appeal to me, but I'm interested in the lives of people who live to excess- who go over the top to stand out and be remembered. Mick Mars, Nikki Sixx, Vince Neil and Tommy Lee certainly did all of that. Every page details the chaotic, drink-and-drug-and-sex-fuelled rise from broke-as-fuck middle-American kids to chart-topping rock legends. Consistently entertaining, and sustains our empathy no matter how bad the protagonists behave (and we all know how bad things got between Tommy and Pamela Anderson), The Dirt is a generous, well-detailed 400-pager with fascinating and frequently bleak tales on each one. I found it reduced to £3 in HMV too, which was a total bargain.

I also finished reading One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest by Ken Kesey, which was made into an award-winning Jack Nicholson movie in 1975. Delinquent RP McMurphy blags his way into a stay in a mental hospital to avoid a hard labour sentence, and wages war on the establishment- in particular the cold, formal but disturbingly sexy Nurse Ratched. The book differs from the film in that one of the film's final twists is actually revealed from the start of the book. The book is a lot darker and the mental ward takes on a much more of a brooding, haunted-asylum tone on the page, but there's still wads of deep-south comedy provided mostly from McMurphy. A great read.

Next up: Measure for Measure, York Notes Advanced guide to the Shakespeare comedy. I gather the Advanced notes are designed to cater for A-level study of the text, as opposed to GCSE (covered by standard York Notes books), and the detail reflects that. These books are great not just for understanding the text, but learning about storytelling techniques in general. Have you ever seen Martin Scorse's Casino? Sam Ace Rothstien narrates the majority of the story, but other characters like Nicky Santoro and Frankie Marino chip in with their commentary throughout the film. In literary terms, this is called a soliloquy, something the audience can hear but the other characters in the film cannot. It was a popular storytelling technique in Shakespeare's time, allowing more insight on the narrative.

Measure for Measure itself is suppose to be a comedy, but it's a pretty bleak one, with a few deaths and imprisonments.

Finally, with a day to spare of 2017, I bashed through Letts Explore Twelfth Night. I prefer Letts guides, as they seem the clearest and best organised, with succinct guides to characters and themes. It doesn't, however, go into much detail about the history of the play and whether the screwball plot of mistaken identities is actually a comedy (Wikipedia says it is).. The focus of Letts is on the content of the play, and doesn't extend to the context of how it would be received in Shakespeare's time, or today.

Away from literature...



The Official Back to the Future Twitter account liked my tweet about 2Unlimited. (The song was actually Tribal Dance, Not Workaholic.)


And that's about it! Now to prepare for the last party of 2017 in Manchester's Roc & Rye!

Saturday, 30 December 2017

I took Sertraline 5 hours earlier than usual for a week.

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Last week I discussed using Sertraline, an antidepressant, and how the timing had possibly been giving me insomnia. I decided I'd take it at midday, instead of at 5pm.

One week isn't enough to gauge the effects, especially when I'm off work over Christmas and there's no need to get up at 7:30. I don't remember having any particular issue with falling asleep, so perhaps it's benefiting me. I'll come back to this in 4 more weeks to see how it's working, by which time I'll have been back in my work routine for a while and sleeping and eating at regular times.

With it being the holidays, my schedule- like most other people's- is quite different, so I've had to remember to bring my dosette (pill) box with me to family functions, shopping or other events. It's another thing to remember, which, with memory difficulties is a challenge in itself, but one I seemed to have managed.

If you're in a situation like mine- memory difficulties from a head trauma and using medication for depression- a dosette box is one of your tools. Your phone calendar is another. Without the ability to receive reminders from my phone, I couldn't have taken my meds reliably. So, obviously, I'd moved that recurring reminder back 5 hours.

Weight gain is a serious problem / side effect of Sertraline, and Christmas is one of the hardest times to avoid junk food. I wan to enjoy the holiday though, so I'm not dwelling on it. I'll probably have put weight on, but whatever. I have plans for how to lose it.

I'll come back to this in 4 more weeks.