Showing posts with label creative Wednesday. Show all posts
Showing posts with label creative Wednesday. Show all posts

Wednesday, 13 May 2026

Journal Club: Living With Disturbance

 

Contents of tonight’s Journal Club: haikus, free writing and lemon pesto tots. Organiser Fi runs through the ground rules: 

CONFIDENTIALITY 

SPEAK FROM I, NOT WE 

STEP FORWARD, MOVE BACK 

EVERYTHING IS AN INVITATION 

BE KIND TO YOURSELF 

It’s Wednesday 6th May, I’m in Hinterland Manchester at their monthly writing group. The theme tonight is ‘Living with Disturbance.’ First, though, a warm-up exercise. 

RIGHT NOW, I AM FEELING… 

...Good, ignoring the rubbish parts of life and remembering everything I have to look forward to. Granted, no day is perfect, and today is like any other. But essentially, I’m feeling gratitude for family, a steady job and freedom to come here. 

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Next, we talk about the meaning of disturbance, throwing out key words and phrases for the board. 

CHANGE 

CHAOS 

INTERRUPTING 

PEACE 

JUGGLING 

DISCOMFORT 

Next, a prompt: 

MY RESPONSE TO THE IDEA OF LIVING WITH DISTURBANCE IS 

Everyone has to deal with a little disturbance in their lives, otherwise we’d have nothing to strive for. I was watching a video of Robert Greene about a prince in some faraway land, hundreds of years ago, who had everything handed to him on a plate. Guess what? He was massively miserable. The staff around him couldn’t figure out what was the cause of such upset. It was because he had nothing to strive for. Nothing to motivate him. That’s why they’ Royalty like Prince William, have jobs flying helicopters etc. That’s why Harry (formerly Prince) was in the Army. We need a bit of disturbance to get us through the day. It’s when this disturbance becomes unmanageable that you need to ask for professional help. Don’t sweep stuff like that under the carpet.

Gong. 

Next up: a haiku, a short-form Japanese poem, arranged in a 5-7-5 syllable format. The title: ‘Disturbance is the Dance of Life.’ Here’s mine: 

What are you doing, 

If not striving for release 

From your own mind jail? 

We had a chance to read out what we’d written, and people seemed to like this one. 

The next haiku challenge involves a series of suggested words to be included: 

WEATHER 

EDGE 

WEIGHT 

HUM 

SHIFT 

BREATH 

SPACE 

EASE

I came up with 2:   

We weather the storm 

An admin task becomes 

A demi-plie.   

 

Without the crushing 

Existentialist longings 

I’m a potted plant. 

Great session. I cannot find that ‘bored prince’ story anywhere, but I know it was Robert Greene who recounted it. Journal club is more than likely back the first Wednesday next month. Check Eventbrite for upcoming events.

Wednesday, 8 April 2026

Journal Club: Turn Towards

 

‘Turning toward’ is the theme for tonight’s journaling club in Hinterland. It’s Wednesday 1st April. To warm up, Organiser Fi allows us to choose between one of 2 10-minute exercises – the free-write prompt ‘When I meet something I am avoiding with curiosity’ or the poem ‘Turning Towards with Curiosity.’  More specifically, turning towards understanding, towards the thing that we’re avoiding. 

Next up, a 5-minute prompt: 

MY FAVOURITE THING TO AVOID IS…  

I tend to avoid difficult conversations, or at least I used to. A few times gripes would go undisclosed, out of a fear that everything would kick off. These days, not so much. I’ll have the argument if needs be. But I get no pleasure from it. A lot of the time, I’ll just think, what’s the point? Writing this, and knowing that I’m going to put it on the blog, is a prime example. There’s a guy I know who came out with a lot of racist shit in a group chat a few weeks ago. I asked another guy what he thought about it, but he wasn’t too bothered. 

The gong goes, indicating the timer. 

We discuss the idea of ‘Turning away from’ and ‘Turning towards.’ Key points: 

ACTION 

VISIBILITY 

STILLNESS 

CHANGE (CONSISTENCY) 

DISCOMFORT 

FEAR 

The next prompt, filling the gap with a word of our choice from the above: 

WHAT HAPPENS WHEN I’M TURNING AWAY FROM ___ ? 

I chose fear.  

I find in life, and in psychology books, that a theme keeps emerging about fear and awkwardness. Any attempt to escape pain only results in more pain. Any awkwardness or difficult conversations are only going to be more awkward or difficult if they’re avoided. I do feel that fear these days. It’s not that bad, having a disagreement. Sometimes, they just aren’t the right people anyway, so that fear is pointless.

The next writing exercise: a choice of 2. 

1. Free write on the prompt: ‘When I meet something I  am avoiding with curiosity…’ 

2. A poem titled ‘Turning Towards with Curiosity.’ 

I chose the second. I don’t dabble in poetry very often these days.  

Enter their spirit, he says. 

Pay attention. Turn towards. Forget yourself. 

That knot in your stomach, the fear, the sickness, 

The inferiority complex. 

Ignore it.  

Ignore your weakened knees. 

Your pounding heart. 

You think of the advice. 

You think of the NHS sessions. 

Focus. Listen. 

Develop the tunnel vision. 

Forget the beer, your mates, 

Her mates. Absorb. 

Tune out the environment. 

Actually listen.   

The timer went at that point and marked the end of the session. 

Good group of journalers. I allowed myself to get a bit personal, which is always a challenge. After each exercise we had the opportunity to read out what we’d written, within our tables, or to the whole group, if we’re brave. 

Journal club will probably be back at the start of May. See Hinterland’s events roster for more.  

Wednesday, 11 February 2026

Journal Club: Love

Organiser Fi writes ‘LOVE: Thank you or please’ on the flipchart. That’s the theme for this month’s Journaling Club in Manchester’s Hinterland. We start with a little 5-minute warm-up task, a familiar one: 

I’M HERE BECAUSE 

I’m here because again I’m looking for stuff to do that isn’t just getting pissed in bars. I’m a writer anyway, so it’s good to do something creative. I have to address this: there’s a dude in here who looks like Filnjor in The Northman. He has the beard. The hair. How’s that for automatic writing? Rollo from Faithless once wrote: 

I get this writer’s block 

It comes as quite a shock 

And now I’m stuck between a 

Hard place and the biggest rock. 

PHOTO OF BUDDHIST TEACHING 

The next prompt: 

MY EXPERIENCE OF LOVE AND FEAR IS 

I sat this one out. Too personal for me. 

Organiser Reggie takes over at this point. On the board he writes: 

THANK YOU / PLEASE 

Here, we’re asked to write from the perspective of something that we love. I thought fast. 

I am chocolate. I am dear, but a man has a Secret Santa present to buy. He heard that his colleague, who he has drawn in work, likes chocolate. That’s all he knows about his colleague. All he does is transfer calls to her. I’m a chocolate box set, 4 circular chocolates with Christmas designs printed on them: a snowman, a reindeer, etc. I’m wrapped, ready to be given to my purchaser’s co-worker. She unwraps me. The woman’s face, the moment we see each other, drops. She appears unreasonably angry. She places me to one side. It seems my purchaser has been misinformed. After the handout... 

The gong goes at this point. Cliffhanger. I’ll tell you later. 

The next prompt: FEAR. 

Fi explains that a lot of emotional trauma that we feel isn’t about the actual fear. What would that fear look like, personified? Would they be casually spoken or formal? How would they be dressed? 

Whatever it looks like, my fear is instantly recognisable to myself and everyone in the room. My fear is more about other people’s reactions than the inciting moment or person itself. I say to my fear, I know it’s you, fear, that is the problem; not the person. 

-- 

Gong. 

The next Weds the 11th, Hinterland hosts their second ‘Create and Play’ session, involving chess and Lego for adults. 

Oh, and if you want to know what happened with the chocolate: I heard my colleague say to another, ‘you don’t give someone something like that unless you want to kill them with sugar!’ Later she handed them out to the team, so I had one. It was nice. Biscuity.

Wednesday, 14 January 2026

Journal Club: New Year, Old Me

 

‘NEW YEAR OLD ME’ is written in block caps on the flip chart at the back of the vegan alcohol free bar Hinterland in the Northern Quarter. It’s the evening of the 7th of January. I've replicated the event on Manc Mates Meetup group although I'm not sure if any attendees from the site are here. The rules are established: 

CONFIDENTIALITY 

MOVE FORWARD STEP BACK 

SPEAK FROM I NOT WE 

BE KIND 

NO NEED TO FIX 

EVERYTHING IS AN INVITATION 

The first prompt on the board: 

I’M HERE BECAUSE 

We’re given a few minutes for automatic writing. I come up with this: 

I’m here because I find the free writing exercises help me to put thoughts into words immediately, without dithering about how best to say it. Also, I love the food. Famished once again. I’m here 20 minutes late because I went to a gym class and forgot a t shirt, and someone kept waffling at me in the changing rooms and I’m too fucking polite to cut them off. Why do I attract these people?!

The group organiser Fi tells us of the book ‘Wintering’ by Katherine May, detailing ‘times when we must retreat to care for and repair ourselves. May thoughtfully shows us how to come through these times with the wisdom of knowing that, like the seasons, our winters and summers are the ebb and flow of life.’ We find ourselves to be in ‘summer,’ going out socialising, or in ‘winter,’ wanting to shut ourselves off socially. 

The next prompt is to pick one of the following and free-write: 

REFLECTIONS ON 2025 

I AM PROUD OF MYSELF FOR 

I FELT MOST ALIVE WHEN  

I’m most proud of myself for standing up for myself. Running a Meetup group requires resolve and confidence. In the last 12 months, I’ve had to send people out of bars, throw people out of Meetup groups digitally, teach people the problems of Zionism (or at least 1 massively drunk group member) and defend my own reputation over a particularly nasty Reddit thread. I’ve tried to be a good colleague, Meetup host, friend and relative. I think I’ve done a good job, despite what some others have thought. I’ve dealt with all of this while dealing with a feeling that I’m being stabbed in the heart. It hasn’t been enough. 

Next up we moved onto RESOLUTIONS. The flipchart read: 

What am I lacking? 

How can I transform? 

Pressure 

Shame 

Comparison 

Self Criticism 

Succeed / fail 

INTENTIONS 

Rooted in relationships with ourselves 

Shapes out conditions 

Directional 

Flexible 

Values-based 

Not outcome focused 

Fi describes how, on Solstice (21st last month) she would write her intentions on separate slips of paper, burn all but one without knowing which, and the one she’s left with she uses as her challenge for the year. 

Next up on the board, a series of words: 

ENOUGH 

REST 

BELONGING 

FOCUS 

BOUNDARIES 

GROUNDING 

SPACE 

PATIENCE 

MOVEMENT 

LAUGHTER 

CLARITY 

FRIENDSHIP 

PLAY/FUN 

ENERGY 

Below that, some prompts to which we can incorporate what’s above 

1) IF I BRING MORE ____ TO 2026 MY LIFE WOULD 

2) GET CREATIVE – PICK 3 WORDS, WRITE A POEM 

3) DOODLE / DRAW 

I come up with this poem:  

The space between a quiet cafe and a rave 

A hospital maternity unit and a grave 

A city centre and a satellite town 

No time for rest if you’re travelling down 

What would be best, for the time you have left? 

Feeling dismayed, in pain or bereft? 

The organiser hits the gong at this point, and she told us of a ‘Create and Play’ themed event happening next month, involving collage and Lego. 

The final flipchart page features 2 prompts to take away if we like: 

THIS YEAR I’D LIKE TO NURTURE 

 SOMETHING I WANT TO MAKE MORE ROOM FOR 

 Journal club returns 4th February.

Wednesday, 7 January 2026

Curry Haiku

Veganuary going strong. Went to my sister’s for a vegan curry takeaway and the new Knives Out movie on Friday night. Things didn’t go to plan though and a minor headache I was nursing became a gargantuan, throbbing agony. Drove home and slept it off. 

Did nothing all Saturday. I did, however, come out with this haiku:  

So dehydrated 

Need to focus on fitness 

Staying in tonight 

Seemed fine by Sunday, went to Uppermill with family, had this:

Wednesday, 17 December 2025

Journaling Club: MY BODY IS NOT A BATTERY

MY BODY IS NOT A BATTERY is written in bloc caps on the flipchart in front of us. This time, at Hinterland’s monthly Journaling Club, there’s no gong to signify the start of the session, but the metal bowl and hammer have the required effect. Organiser Fi establishes a few basic rules for the group, remaining confidentiality and speaking from ‘I’ – writing of our own experiences, etc. before we dive into the first writing prompt. We have a choice of 2. 

I’VE COME HERE BECAUSE / RIGHT NOW MY ENERGY IS 

Right now my energy is high. I’ve just come from a pump class and have eaten very little. I welcome a moment of calm, and this vegan burger is going down a treat. Christmas presents are all bought early, for once, with 1 or 2 still to pick up. My recent challenge, The Saddleworth Santa Dash, is done and dusted. I’m now projectless, spiralling into junk food and knock-off Aldi alcohol. -- I’ve come here because I’m looking for other things to do socially, not just bars and clubs. Yet I’ve found myself on my own table. I’ve ran a Manc Mates meetup to this with about 8 attendees. Are any of them here? 

Gong. 

The next prompt: we can choose from 2. 

MY ENERGY IS SHAPED BY / A TIME I WAS SURPRISED BY MY ENERGY CHANGING WAS 

My energy is shaped by food. I’ve just dieted for 2 months for the aforementioned race; I’ve eaten mountains of veg and meat. The race went well, and I’ve felt strong in gym classes. I’ve focussed in work, no major issues as far as I know, and meetup groups have gone well. All of this is through cutting out chocolate, takeaways, alcohol etc. Now I’m mixing them back in I’m noticing the sluggishness again, the slight dip in mood. The sleep disruption. My plan was basically to be a pisscan for the month of December, but I don’t think I can tolerate abusing my body in this way. Maybe during Christmas I should try to change my energy back again. 

Gong. 

Next prompt on the flipchart: 

MY BODY IS NOT A BATTERY  

I decided to go into rhyme for this. 

A third alarm awakes me from slumber 

The light and the music, and I am still under 

I hear the radio as if from a distance 

My body is offering major resistance 

A shattering loudness, the mobile phone 

Completes the trinity and brings my mind home 

Hard to stand up and engage my cranium 

I feel like I’ve just drank depleted uranium 

 - 

The gong sounded and Fi invited me to read this out, so I did. 

Fi reminded us that Hinterland have lots of events lined up in January. The next journaling group is 7th January. Other events will revolve around community, art and play. 

We end with a reminder of the acronym 

FAST: 

Forgive 

Accept 

Surrender 

Time to move forward 

This, the presenter explains, is the best way to get over negative thoughts. 

Thankfully throughout the evening all my thoughts, aside ranting in rhyme about insomnia, have been positive.

Wednesday, 5 November 2025

Take Note

I wrote this flash in a writers’ group possibly a decade ago, based on a prompt we did for a warm- up exercise. I rewrite it, brought it back into the group as a potential piece for publication, got some feedback, tweaked it again and found a publication called Open Road Review, which – like many publications that took my work – doesn’t seem to exist any more. Their format included both the text of the flash fiction piece plus the audio of the author reading it out, which I was happy to perform. 

I’m planning to read this one out somewhere in Manchester soon. 

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Fucking lists, man. D'you think I'd get into a job like this if I liked reading? Still, a favour for a favour. 

I've just walked in and there's no-one home, like I thought, but at least there's a note telling me where he's gone. Some remote part of Yorkshire while everything cools down. There’s a task list scrawled at the bottom of the sheet. He wants me to house-sit, but he's keeping me busy.  

Take the wood home and burn it.  

I look out through the window, the view dimmed by the one-way glass and wire mesh, to the large garden. There's a pile of timber on the lawn. I'll have to lump it through the house as the side gate is always padlocked and barb-wired. It's gonna take a while to drag it from one end to the other.  

Also burn all the documents on the table, including this one. 

Clean the kitchen thoroughly. 

The deep red stains on the linoleum make me shudder. Look at that marble work surface, splattered in gore. 

I don’t even know what happened here. I read on, trying to focus. 

The doorbell rings. My heart pounds. I walk to the door, reading on, shutting the kitchen door behind me. Frosted glass is tacky, but it has its benefits. I could do without salesmen or whoever glimpsing a murder scene. Our guys have got enough on their hands. 

I walk past a computer in the hallway. 

Wipe the PC hard drive.  

Wipe the hard drive? How do I get into- Oh, delete the data. Right. Might have to Google that one. 

I've gotta follow these instructions word for word. When you work for a man like him you do what he says, you know? ‘Specially in the middle of the biggest gang war Manchester has ever seen. I didn't do what I was told, and that's how I got this shit job. I've got some making up to do if I don’t want to end up in a hole. 

I wonder if he actually gives a shit about me any more.  

Hoover up the dust on the lounge carpet. 

If I do all this, no-one would ever suspect that any of our men had been here. Once it's clean, it's just a regular rich guy’s house. 

I open the door. There's a man dressed in black with his hand in his pocket.  

DON'T ANSWER THE DOOR. 

The man pulls out a silenced Glock 9. I wish I could read faster.

Wednesday, 20 August 2025

Journaling – the Stories we Tell Ourselves

“You don’t need to call yourself a journaler,” the organiser tells us - “the emphasis is reflective writing.”  

Hinterland is a CIC – Community Interest Company, and tonight - 13th August - is the second Journaling Club ran by the vegan restaurant. The main writing prompts revolved around the theme of The Stories we Tell Ourselves. 

Prompt: ‘I came here because…’  

I came here because the last group was really interesting. I got good practice with journaling and met some cool people. I’m always looking for something different to try out and I was in Manchester anyway after a restaurant trip with family. How do I make this interesting for the blog post? And why the fuck did I wear black on a hot day like this? Why not shorts? What a ridiculous decision. This is, however, a departure from the norm of cocktail bars, steak houses and the sports centre. I can’t stay in watching Viking dramas all week.    

The organiser asked us where our ideas for journaling may come from, and what elements get filtered out or chosen either for writing or are just the thoughts we may have about ourselves. We came up with suggests as a group and I copied this from the flipchart:

Second journaling event at Hinterland Manchester, 13/8/25, this time on the theme 'The Stories we Tell Ourselves.'

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— Matt Tuckey 🇬🇧 (@matttuckey.bsky.social) August 17, 2025 at 10:00 AM

The next prompt: ‘I sometimes assume I’m the kind of person who…’ 

Isn’t smart enough to do what other people do. A lot of my colleagues do all sorts of work that I wouldn’t have a clue how to do. But then I remind myself that a lot of what other people do, they can because they can remember the processes, not because they have some innate ability that I lack. I have to remind myself that a psychologist I saw when I was 9 years old told me I had the reading age of a 14-year-old. That I got writing published in a local paper when I was 15. That I edited pre-recorded radio shows that went out on air when I was 22/23.  

The facilitator here (at Hinterland) has asked us, ‘what’s underneath this?’ Mistakes I make due to memory are embarrassing. When you don’t get diagnosed til you’re 27, your character gets framed during a period when you don’t have any understanding of why you can’t do what you need to. 

The gong is tapped, indicating the end of the writing time. 

Next we’re given 4 prompts on the board to choose from:  

If I allowed myself to let go of the story… 

Short story: Once Upon a Time… 

Letter: Dear… 

Myth: There once lived someone brilliant… 

Ideally, I’d have come up with something for ideas 2 3 or 4, but it just wasn’t happening, so I did what the NHS repeatedly tells me not to and ran around my own head, settling for the first idea.  

If I allowed myself to let go of the story, I’d probably spend the rest of my days approaching every attractive woman I saw at all times. The story I hold is that I’m not going to be good enough. It’s a lifelong problem stemming from primary school, or mainly secondary. It’s such a stupid reason to live an unhappy life. I think I’d probably find the right person without the fear. I’ve done it so many times, though – broken through the fear and met people I’ve been enamoured with, only to find they’re from Lincoln, or they’re not that bothered. 

The gong hits again. The organiser flips the chart. The new discussion points:  

What does it mean to be part of a tribe or community? 

What’s your role in the community? 

How can I feel the feeling under the story? 

How can I feel the story differently? 

Dwelling in the feeling 

Be with it. 

After a chat on this, the session ends here. 

Hinterland’s events offer up something different – an alcohol free environment, vegan food, engaging discussion, a good mix of people.

Wednesday, 16 July 2025

Journaling - What is Freedom?

After running a few meetups in Hinterland last year, I found that the vegan cafe could no longer accommodate us due to their own events. Their roster started to stack up with philosophy and poetry nights, all things that, in fairness, I’d be tempted to try out. I’ve been trying to find things to do that aren’t just going to bars and sampling cocktails, so an alcohol-free bar like Hinterland made a good start. 

On Wednesday 2nd July they hosted a journaling class organised by Fi, who had chosen the theme for the evening:  

What is freedom, really? 

Fi encouraged us to free-write, in prose or poetry, what we thought of the word ‘freedom,’ and encouraged us to speak from our own perspective. We were given a few minutes to put together a piece on the subject. 

Here’s mine: 

The hardest thing about freedom is that you don’t realise how valuable it is until it’s taken away from you. Lack of money or time, or other obligations like family commitments can take over your life. But when they don’t, your freedom can allow you opportunities to try new experiences. Freedom, however, has its dark side. Too much freedom and not enough commitment, can bring out other frustrations.

2/7/25 Journaling event in Hinterland Manchester. #creativewednesday

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— Matt Tuckey 🇬🇧 (@matttuckey.bsky.social) July 16, 2025 at 10:00 AM

Fi asked us for our thoughts on ‘Freedom,’ or lack thereof, and she added them to the board. 

 • Self judgement / expectations 

 • Holding contradictions 

 • Staying open 

• Allowing things to be messy / unresolved 

Another prompt with a 10-minute free-writing exercise came next, on the title: A part of me that longs for freedom is… 

I splurged this out onto the page: 

A part of me that already is free, but I’m afraid to take that step. I could more, solo. I’ve never gone abroad alone. 

 I have memory difficulties. The restriction here is that new places are hard for me to get around. I rely on my phone a lot. New places require organisation. I’d be screwed without Google Maps. That said, I have managed it in other British cities live Liverpool and Newcastle. It could be done. Is a foreign country really going to be that different? It’s a big step, but I’m tempted to test that freedom and plan out a slow adventure. I’d be free from other people’s restrictions, other plans and priorities. If I want to try that club, that museum, I can. 

Do I dare, though? 

So, yes. Automatic writing rarely results in anything other than drivel, but hey, it’s honest drivel. Isn’t that why you read my stuff? 

And Goddamn I need to practice Teeline. Trying to decipher my own shorthand after a few days was like trying to read the Zodiac’s letters, only I’d written it myself. 

I think someone read out a poem at this point, then we dove into a new prompt:  

The Place that I Find Freedom 

The pen upon the page, bringing factual or fiction 

whatever you can think of, without any restriction 

not getting any younger, traverse across the land, 

take the opportunity, embrace with both hands 

order from the chaos, all you need’s a pen 

That’s as far as I got before the timer went. 

Enjoyable group. Good mix of people. Not too pretentious, great venue (I’ve never been to a bad event in Hinterland) and well ran.

Wednesday, 12 February 2025

Oldham Library Writers Group

Social Prescribing advised me that this writing group was meeting monthly in Oldham Library, so I figured I’d try out Oldham Library Writers Group session on 4th February. Haven’t been to a writers session since some time before the pandemic, and haven’t written anything creative since some time before that meeting, but I figured I’d at least attend and see what the deal was with this new group and whether it would be worthwhile. 

Gonna blow my own trumpet here: I’ve been writing for some time and I’ve had bits of things published here and there. I don’t claim to be particularly good at many things, but I can write. If I’m going to go to a writers’ group, I’m going to want to be surrounded by people who are going to push me to be better, and they need to be good too. 

Oldham Library Writers Group are a well intentioned bunch, but I didn’t feel like they were going to help me to improve. 

We did do an interesting writing exercise, though, in which we all had a sheet of paper each and started with the line, ‘He woke up to find the city deserted.’ We wrote for a few minutes, then when the timer went we passed the sheet on. Each iteration was the same length of writing time but with an increasing extended period beforehand to read over what had been written so far. It was difficult as nobody’s handwriting – not even my own block capitals – were clear enough for other people to read. There were, if I’ve got this right, 9 of us in the session, so the story below is written buy all the members of the group. We then read each story out, each member reading the story that they started to write. 

I've typed out the piece featuring the opening section I wrote, and I've included an asterisk page break to show where the next person took over. 

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He woke up to find the city deserted. His back hurt from sleeping on the concrete bollard blocking the road, although he had no recollection of climbing onto it. He was very thirsty and his head pounded. 

Thoughts of the night before invaded his mind. Too much alcohol, he thought. Oh, why did he have to drink so much? He hadn’t a clue of why he’d ended up here, and pondered why there was no-one else around. He picked himself up. His back was wet from sleeping in a puddle, his legs cold – one of his socks was missing. He felt a bruise on his arm. Was that mustard on his shirt? 

He sniffed the shirt, not mustard, but something unpleasant. His nose wrinkled. ‘Oof.’ He spied the empty burger wrapper by his feet and heard his stomach growl in protest. A wave of nausea hit him then. 

He was gross. The city may be empty, his life might be desolate but he needed to get his act together. “Ugh.” He slowly dragged himself to his feet and dragged himself forward. His body ache in places he did not know he could ache. 

“Let’s do it,” he said to himself. “Let’s go.” 

He didn’t know where he was going but actually moving physically was the best he could do. Somewhere in his psyche he knew that getting up would motivate him. 

Where was he going? Who knows? Because he sure as hell didn’t. This is what life has come to? The endless self-deprecation questions swirled in his head, but life had challenged him every step of the way, and he always had a trick up his sleeve – he just needed to know what game this was. 

He would not give up. So much was depending on him.

  – 

I think we really needed a little more time to flesh out the narrative each iteration. But most of the stories from this session followed the same 28-Days-Later theme. 

The next session is Tuesday, 18th February.

Wednesday, 20 January 2021

Inaugruation Day Limerick

Wednesday, 26 February 2020

Once Upon a Time in Great Britain: Part 14

Callum smiles at Devant, sinister, proud of his latest killing.

Devant pulls out a silenced Glock 17 and shoots Callum in the hand. He’s a good shot.

Callum SREAMS.

Tom is frozen stiff with fear, convinced he’s going to die.

Balaclava 2 takes 2 tea towels twists one and offers it to Balaclava 1,who’s trying to shut out the pain. As he bites down, his Balaclava twists out of shape.

DEVANT
I expect you’ll want an explanation, Tom.

Devant pulls out a DVD from his overcoat. He takes it out of the case and puts it in the drive.

Balaclava 2 yanks the knife out quickly. Blood spurts all over him. Balaclava 1 SCREAMS. Balaclava 2 takes the other tea towel and ties it tight around the wound.

The DVD shows CCTV footage from a police station. Callum is sat in a room talking to a technician on computer. The techie is making a photo fit image. As Callum talks, the face changes shape, the hair shortens, and the image starts to look like Tom. The technician applies a darker skin-tone. Now it really resembles our narrator. After a few adjustments to the hairline and jaw line, it’s practically Tom’s image on screen. It becomes, we realise, Tom’s photo fit image from the news report.

DEVANT
I didn’t spend all this time and money solving this country’s problems just to have everything ruined by an unstable sixteen-year-old with a vendetta. With regards to the censor's office, what’s done is done Tom. And I can clear it up. I won’t have to clear your name because they will never find you- unless, of course, Callum walks out of this room.

Callum is sobbing uncontrollably.


DEVANT
You’ll never have to kill again. You’ll never have to worry about money.

FLASHBACKS
The Job Centre exploding.

The burned-out car.

Firing at the police and security, chasing him outside the sensor’s office.

The clip from Apocalypse Now.

MARLON BRANDO’S VOICE
The strength to do that…

Tom takes the gun from Devant. Devant nods to the other men. They leave.

Tom looks Callum in the eye and shoots him in the head. A look of determination changes instantly to apathy.

DEVANT
Good choice, Tom. The worst is over. You did as you were told. But Callum… he had issues. He liked his films too much. The two psychologists that I’d sent him to had no idea how unstable he was. They knew he had... a condition. He’d had a hard day. His work colleagues were making his life difficult, he felt under pressure from breaking the law and the secrets he kept. Then he found out that his legitimate job in fast food and his work colleagues didn’t exist any more. And all he wanted was to go home, watch a film and forget about the world. But the film was edited for violence. Because of his condition, that is one thing Callum could not tolerate. So he went behind my back, found out as much information about the censors as he could, then made a plan to kill them all. The people he killed only edit current news, so the people who edited his film weren't even targeted. They're in London. The people he killed were helping the campaign's PR. He's caused me a lot of problems. But anyway, he needed a getaway driver and a scapegoat. So he stumbled across you… It didn’t really go to plan for him. But now all of this is over, you probably want to ask the same question that anyone drowning in self pity would ask. 'Why me?'

He points to the TV.

CCTV footage flickers to life.

Tom, in his student days, is on the street at night. He has a girl on his arm.

We’ve seen this event in the opening scene, but not from this angle. A tall man argues with Tom. The girl steps into the argument. BAM! Tall man punches the girl in the face, hard. Her head flies back.

Tom SNAPS. He punches the man three times, throws a knee in that drops him, then Tom kicks him twice in the stomach and once in the face.

The video cuts.

The video now shows Tom working in the computer office. We saw some of this in the opening scene too, but it’s a continuation of this. At the edge of the shop floor, the manager’s office door flies open. Tom marches out, angered. Tom turns and shouts back into the office. We can lip read 'Fuck you!' Tom walks out. A nicely aligned, 2-metre-high stack of printer paper has been constructed on the shop floor. Tom pushes it all over. Customers jolt. The manager emerges, a little cautious, and glances to the camera.

TOM
You found all this out overnight?

DEVANT
No. We were watching you, Tom. We’ve been watching since you enrolled at university. Then we sent you the letter and hoped you’d turn up at the recruitment fair. It has taken me until now to get this campaign organised. Besides, how else would you get away with what you did? You broke that man’s eye socket and two of his ribs.

Tom gets the shivers. Devant knows so much about him.

DEVANT
We knew you were perfect for the role. You’re intelligent and hard working, like a lot of graduates, but you are also resilient and strong-willed. We knew you wouldn’t fold under the pressure.

TOM (Sarky)
Not even when you put my photo fit image on national television! Have I made you proud?

Devant leans on the doorway. He relaxes his business persona.

DEVANT
Tom… Getting a terrorist campaign passed through parliament would never have been the easiest thing to do. So we didn’t even try to pass it. The government have been very… particular about terrorism since Guy Fawkes got caught. Not many MPs know that I orchestrated the events in Manchester yesterday. Some of the few that do didn’t agree with it. They wanted the campaign stopped. They must have a problem with developing public health and well-being-

Tom cuts him off.

TOM
Right, first off- that is bollocks. And it’s not about testing graduates abilities either. Tell me the truth or I will do nothing for you.

DEVANT
It’s all of those and more, Tom. There are people stopping this country developing, very influential businessmen- people in power who could very easily persuade members of parliament not to follow the Prime Minister’s plans. These people are afraid of change, even though everyone agrees- change is all that is needed. I needed help with this, so I looked for a graduate. Someone who was looking for a challenge: a life-changing opportunity, who wanted it so bad they’d approach a stranger at an unmarked stall at a recruitment event full of adverts. I wanted someone proactive. The only encouragement I gave you was was posting you a leaflet. I knew you had a history of violence…

TOM’S FACE suggests, 'Oh, come on…'

DEVANT (Cont)
And I figured you could handle it. Other people, other graduates, and my colleagues, they couldn't.

TOM (realising)
That's why that guy tried to stab me!

DEVANT (genuinely concerned)
Someone tried to stab you?

TOM
In the middle of the street, Devant, he came right at me. I killed him too.

DEVANT
Was he- was he in all black, with sunglasses?

TOM
Yes. Yes, he was.

DEVANT
Where?

TOM
The back alley by Boots.

DEVANT
I will have it cleaned up. Tom, I have put you through a lot in the last few days. I planned a lot of it, but I didn't plan that and I apologise. Do you understand how close we came to losing? He must have been the last one. The rest are dead. I've had confirmation.

Devant nods to the screen. The images now show Tom, more recently, suited and booted, walking into the Job Centre, about to hand over the package.

Tom in the GUM clinic, package in hand.

And from a distance, Tom walking into McD’s.

Certifiable damning evidence of his guilt. It looks like Tom was walking into each place with full knowledge of what he was going to do. It looks like he was brainwashed from the start. His enthusiasm for the job looks like his enthusiasm for terrorism.

DEVANT
Your face was used because the other MP’s wanted the campaign stopped. You were the scapegoat. (Pause) Thankfully, as the government has at least some control over illegal immigration, we have a plentiful supply of scapegoats of our own. It wasn’t difficult for our contacts to pin it on someone who looks like you. Round about now the police will be killing an unknown foreigner who they will later accuse of the attacks. Now. You have a choice: go to the police – I don’t think you want to know what would happen if you did, but I’m advising you against it- or stay on the payroll. There’ll be more control, more power, more money.

TOM
What am I doing?

DEVANT (off the cuff)
You’ll have absolute control of all piracy in Manchester. All you have to do is find a legitimate cover job. Part time.

TOM
Not really a choice, is it…

FADE OUT

FADE UP

INT.COMMUNITY CENTRE-DAY

The building is housing a career guidance centre of sorts: like the Job Centre, but everybody in there is being designated a job. An employment officer is talking to a reluctant young man in a tracksuit.

EMPLOYMENT OFFICER
What are you going to do? You either turn up at 9am, or I hand you over to custody.

RELUCTANT YOUNG MAN
It's only 22 hours.

EMPLOYMENT OFFICER
There are other people who need this work too. You're job sharing.

It’s much more efficient. Employers stand in a group, looking for candidates. They don’t have stalls like in the recruitment fair. A sign on the wall states:

EMPLOYMENT GUARANTEED!

TOM (V.O)
Looks like I’m back in admin again. The cycle repeats itself… I’d be quite happy to update customer details for the rest of my fucking life, just as long as I’m not opening the post for everyone. You don't know what might be inside those packages. My CV’s not improved in months, but I’m not signing on- none of us are- and I know whatever job I get into I’m not going to be in it long. Because Devant needs me. The government needs me. What I’m about to take over is going to cause a lot of misery for a lot of people. But it’s not my misery. I’ve got a piracy network all to myself, not to mention a luxury city centre apartment. I know that I can take this. I can handle whatever card I’m dealt, no matter how much ammonium nitrate it’s been dipped in. There is nothing that can hurt me now.

ZOOM OUT

Tom is just another jobseeker in a room full of jobseekers, joining a queue.

FADE OUT

END