Sunday 28 January 2024

Flexibility, Films, Food, Followers

Working on this flexibility project. Making steady progress. Finished the cereal, bread and porridge. Now just buying dairy, meat, fish, tuna, fruit juice for smoothies, and veg. Dipped under 80kg. Don’t seem to be getting anywhere with my 5km run, and haven’t been on the treadmill much, but the bikes in Oldham Sports Centre have virtual races around Europe’s countryside, so touring – on video at least – Austria, Italy and France has been interesting. And exhausting. The last one took me 2hrs 20 mins. 

Managed to squeeze in a couple of January restaurant deals this week. 

 

 

I don’t think I’d have a nacho pizza again, but the pepperoni I had a few years ago I seem to remember being brilliant. 

Also, Julia Ann, who I swear had been following me on Twitter for over a decade, took umbrage to a comment I made opposing drug prohibition. She’s not following me now, whatever the case. But she must have been, because how else did she reply to my comment, which was for someone else entirely? (Someone who, it seems, blocked me.) I think it was about Jesse Jane’s death, although I now can’t see. 

And that was my week off. It flew by.

Saturday 27 January 2024

The Nature of Social Work

A while back, I picked up 3 small guide books in Tesco’s charity bookshelf, all on the theme of social work. I work in that general field, back office, so I figured it would be helpful just to do a bit of quick reading to garner a bit of background knowledge. 

This 150-page guide for social workers, written in 1976, was one of the most insanely complicated books I’ve ever read. Author Zofia T. Butrym immediately jumps to the conclusion that we’re all fully qualified and trained already, and that we’re well versed in ‘Kantian philosophy,’ ‘the orthodox Marxist view,’ and who ‘Etzioni’ is. Combine this with no glossary, some italicised undefined German words and some ‘well-known social thinkers’ (named, but we’re told nothing else about them) and you get the impression you’re reading some archaic, high-level guide for toffs who would probably have been suited to NHS management roles back then, rather than patient-facing. In which case, why would they need this book? 

Suffice to say, there’s no glossary. On the issue of words, a lot of the language used wouldn’t fly today: references ‘handicap’ (nobody is playing golf here) and ‘subnormal persons’ cause a cringe, plus a ‘reluctance to acknowledge the prime importance of moral values’ is blamed on ‘a decline in religious faith.’ 

Between 1970 and 2015, the Roman Catholic Church received more than 900 complaints involving over 3,000 instances of child sexual abuse against more than 900 individuals connected to the Church, including priests, monks and volunteers. In the same period, there were 177 prosecutions resulting in 133 convictions. This is according to The Independent Inquiry into Child Sexual Abuse

I think we can safely confirm that religion and moral values aren’t in the slightest bit connected. Shit, my childhood vicar and teacher went to prison in 2014 for abusing boys in the 1970s. 

Let’s not forget that the most atheist countries, like those in Scandinavia, have some of the lowest crime rates

To be fair, Butrym acknowledges there are ‘errors in such an equation’ and ‘morality is an inherent part of human nature.’ 

Further archaisms include a report indicating there are ‘2 distinct categories of social worker – university trained and non university trained.’ This was before Labour abolished grants, turning universities into businesses, who subsequently churned thousands of people out with useless and ill-informed degrees (like mine). 

That said, this mid-70s book already recognises ‘this age of scepticism and materialism’ before the yuppie culture of the 80s and the social media obsessions of the 2010s onwards. Maybe some things don’t change. 

An early point made in the book is one of the most striking for me. Way back in 2010, after I’d received my psych assessment diagnosing me with memory difficulties, I was briefly transferred to the Learning Disabilities team in Adult Social Care. Short term memory difficulties is a disability – a condition that has a long-term detrimental effect on my day-to-day activities – and what I would describe as a ‘learning difficulty.’ It’s difficult to learn anything. However, the Learning Disability team in Social Care, in any town, will deal mostly with 2 distinct conditions: Generalised Learning Difficulties, and Autism. I have neither of these. So, my time in this department was bound to be challenging. 

When the Social Worker – we’ll call her MJ – first contacted me, she arranged to meet me in a coffee shop in the middle of town. At the time, I thought nothing of it. Once I got there, though, I realised I was in the middle of the town that I’d grown up in, gone to school in and done bar work in. I knew a lot of people there. Anyone could have walked in and started asking questions. 

MJ turned up, immediately sceptical about the situation. 'When I saw your information,' she claimed, 'I thought, how am I supposed to know what to do?' 

She was perhaps toward the end of her career. Did I really want to explain to her the challenges of working in marketing when you aren’t qualified, you have no clue how to make money, you’re friends are verbally abusing you and passing it off as banter, you have no cooking ability, you’re incessantly arguing with your family and every girl you date loses interest in you pretty much immediately? 

None of this was going to fit the field into which she could give viable advice. I suggested that it might be good for MJ to act as kind of a broker – to help me to find the people that would know how to advise me. She seemed sceptical about this too… and then told me she’d be able to see me once every 3 weeks. 

Months of this went by before I grew a set and sat MJ down, and confronted her over the numerous things that were neglected. By this time I’d got a flat (that she had, to her credit, helped me to bid on), but months later it was undecorated because I had no idea how to do this. How do I use a steamer or hang wallpaper? How do I organise bill payments? What benefits should I be on as a disabled man? How do I budget? Shop for food? Cook meals? My body (which had been in exceptional shape until I’d moved out) had fallen apart, I’d put on 5kg, the one girl I’d changed my Facebook relationship status for (to this day, even) had dumped me, and my ‘friends’ in Oldham were slagging me off over Facebook. 

I’d also been assigned a Housing Support Officer (brought in to oversee my move-out from the parents’ house) but she did nothing, and claimed these above issues were all the responsibility of the Social Worker. 

MJ’s response to this was that she was ‘not a provider of solutions.’ Then she called me spiteful. 

I filed a complaint against her and was taken out from under her ‘care.’ 

Now, let’s get back to this Nature of Social Work book. Very early on in the book there are references to different ‘models’ of social work, a ‘representation of structure,’ of how to administer care for the different people who need it. One of these is ‘The Problem Solving Model.’ 

As Butrym puts it, ‘life consists of problem solving activities. For much of the time, human beings are engaged in these activities without being consciously aware of their challenge to themselves. It is only when, for some reason, their usual equipment for meeting life situations fails them that they become aware of being faced with a problem. When this happens, new resources for dealing with the situation have to be mobilised.’ 

It’s taken me 13 years, but I can confirm that, albeit I was in the wrong department, MJ was definitely wrong about the nature of her own role. This leaves me wondering how effectively she supported her other clients – those with generalised learning disabilities and autism.

I’m glad this book is over. What an excruciating – albeit occasionally enlightening - read.

Monday 22 January 2024

Steadily working through this fitness project

I’m making gradual progress with running, flexibility and weight loss. You can expect a lot of weekly #psychologysaturday content over the next few weeks: book reviews, governmental updates, recipe reviews, possibly some psychopharmacology experiments. Also hoping to take advantage of at least one of these restaurant deals in Manchester. 9 days left for these.

Sunday 21 January 2024

Lola Lo Closes / William Forsythe Moment

One of Deansgate Locks’ largest establishments, tropical themed bar Lola Lo, has closed its doors for good. 

 

 

I had some good nights in there over the years. Deansgate Locks has sadly eroded from being the celeb / fit bird hotspot of 2002 to the place you go to see chavs bottling doormen and getting arrested. Oh well. 

 

 

Monopoly Events have finally uploaded to YouTube the videos of the panels from last November’s For the Love of Horror convention. Here are actors Costas Mandaylor and William Forsythe discussing Devil’s Rejects and other movies. 

 

 

Skip to 5:25 if you particularly want to hear Mr. Forsythe answer my question about Once Upon a Time in America, my favourite film. What a moment.

Saturday 20 January 2024

I Finished the CBD

Way back in 2019, before the clusterfuck of the pandemic and the vaccine rollout, I was attending Go PR’s launch parties and influencer dinners. I don’t seem to receive those invites these days; not entirely sure why. 

Anyway, one of the last events before lockdown was the launch of Cancalm, a CBD company. CBD, or cannabinoid oil, ‘is the second most prevalent active ingredient in cannabis… One of hundreds of components in marijuana, CBD does not cause a "high" by itself. To date, there is no evidence of public health related problems associated with the use of pure CBD.’ - Harvard Health Publishing

I bought a bottle of CBD at the launch, intending to start taking these to see if these would reduce symptoms of social anxiety. I managed to use it just before a few nights out, throughout the end of 2019 and into the start of 2020. 

Then COVID hit. 

Being in lockdown was pretty chilled for me TBH: I was an essential worker, so my money was the same. I had books to read. I was just stressed about relatives getting ill. People breaching the lockdown was an issue for me, and I lost some friends because of that. I stand by my criticisms, though. I don’t care what you were protesting: going out in groups when 100 people a day were dying of COVID was hugely selfish behaviour. But it wasn’t worth using up the CBD when there was no particular challenge to my mental health. 

Eventually, the vaccine came along, and steadily throughout 2021, the country got back to some semblance of normal. Trouble was, a good number of people – that I had formed good friendships with – turned out to be anti-vaxx. I tried to talk to them, but they weren’t having it. They believed total falsehoods and spread content over socials from far-right politicians and journalists, until eventually I lost my patience and blocked them. I’ve trawled through Facebook, Instagram and Twitter this month, cutting people out. 

Since the lockdown was lifted, it’s been really difficult to rekindle friendships or make new ones, as many of the people I would have gone out with are still going out themselves with anti-vaxxers and flagrant lockdown breachers. 

I guess we all have different morals. 

This year, I’ve made a concerted effort to find social events and to meet new people, but there’s been so little that I’ve genuinely wanted to do. So the CBD bottle sat on my bedroom drawers. 

September rolled around, and it was time for a new challenge. I wanted to see if, with CBD, there was any improvement to memory or anxiety. I took a drop of Cancalm daily. After a month, I wrote up how little had changed. But I kept taking the Cancalm until it ran out, which it did this week. 

Any changes? I dunno. It’s harder than ever to challenge myself socially. So many people are either broke, anti-vaxx (including, sadly, the Cancalm CEO herself), too busy or have moved away. Or, I have so little in common with them that it’s hardly worth trying to socialise with them. Plus, it’s winter now, and the idea of going out in the freezing cold when people are at their poorest doesn’t appeal – not to me, nor anyone else, seemingly. I managed to get to one meetup in November. A few club nights over the months. 

But no, I don’t rate CBD. Better to change thought processes consciously – through reading, learning, or speaking to the medical experts – than by putting something in your body.

Monday 15 January 2024

Week off next week.

Just need to hammer through the next 5 days. 

Mike Williams (IYKYK) responded to Popbitch’s baboon vs badger conundrum.

Saturday 13 January 2024

Hmm. Got a bit of a nasty email from HMRC this week.

No biggie, just had to agree to the following: 

Keeping your commitments 

Your payment can be reduced if you don't keep a commitment without a good reason. This is known as a sanction. The length of the sanction will depend on: 

• what you failed to do 

• how long it takes you to do what you agreed 

• how often you've been sanctioned in the past year 

Warning 

If you don't keep a commitment, you can avoid losing more money by doing what you agreed as soon as possible. Your payment can be reduced if you don't keep a commitment. This is known as a sanction. The amount depends on what you failed to do and how often you've been sanctioned in the past year. 

If you don't keep a commitment 

You must tell your work coach straight away. You'll need to explain why. If we decide that you had a good reason, your payment won't be reduced. 

How to avoid reduced payments 

1. Do what you can to stay in work 

If you leave a job or lose pay by choice or due to misconduct, your payment can be reduced for up to 6 months. 

2. Report changes to your work 

If a job ends and you don't report it within 5 days, your payment will be reduced until the day before you report it. Once you've done this, your payment will be reduced for an additional 7, 14 or 28 days. 

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It just seemed to me to be an unnecessary threat to a disabled bloke on PIP and UC, working in the same government admin job as he has been since ‘07, just about managing in a role in which he isn’t particularly well-suited, but he does it anyway because he’s an adult. I get, though, that it's an automated email that will have been sent to millions of claimants. 

Here’s an idea: rather than badgering working disabled people, why not go after the £4.9 billion in fraudulent COVID loans that were never recouped?

Sunday 7 January 2024

2024

Max Fills and Tanya Tate liked my comment about British and American spelling. New year at a house party. Good fun. Then I darted into the City Centre to watch kickout time.

What a way to start 2024. 

My most-hit YouTube video has ben taken down due to being ‘graphic sexual content.’ Titled ‘Spankathon,’ the video – from 2015 – featured 2 fully-clothed women spanking each other’s backsides. The event in Manchester was, ironically, in response to British censorship laws. 

Lesson here: if your content is in any way risky, best off putting it up on a platform like X or maybe Mastodon. Or, if you’ve got a blog, upload the content straight to your blogging platform. 

I’ve now got a strike on Youtube. I could have sworn the M.E.N article had a video too, but no. 

Manchester favourite Cottonopolis, a great Northern Quarter bar, has closed. I have fond memories of seeing Andy Smith from Portishead DJing there in ‘17.

Tuesday 2 January 2024

January will be somewhat of a chaotic month.

January may traditionally be the quiet, broke month in which people obsess over fitness and money (and who says I won’t?) but it’s the perfect time to hit personal goals, undistracted by other people. 

I have four targets to hit. 

Namman Muay

 

1) Improve flexibility 

I recently bought some Namman Muay Thai oil, a traditional eastern product that warms up the skin, joints and muscles, and is known to prevent bruising. Muay Thai fighters use it before fighting to aid recovery. 

The plan is to use this on my legs to gain some flexibility, whilst polishing off a few books that I really want to read. I’ve tried this project many time before, but this will be the first one with authentic Namman Muay, something I used to use in the early 00s when I trained in Muay Thai. 

My record for sitting splits is 163cm from 2014. I’ve just sat down and got 140cm. Let’s see if I can beat 163. 

2) Beat my outdoor run record 

I have a route near me that takes around 45 mins to do. On a good day I can do it in 40. I managed 38:06 in October last year, at a time when I was living off spinach and kale smoothies. My weight was plummeting and I was beating my chin-up records frequently. It could be done again, if I have a similar diet. (I’m not going to let my freezer food perish this time, though.) 

3) Beat my indoor run record 

Back in 2013, when I was 31, I managed to run for 10 minutes at 14.1km/ph. In November this year, in preparation for the Santa Dash, a 5km run, I managed to match said record. Then after the Santa Dash I ate a load of junk food as a reward. I can get nowhere near now. But the diet will be back on track, the work will be put in and I expect I can get back to where I was in a month. Just watch. 

4) Fit back into my suit trousers 

I managed this back in November ‘22, after lots of vegetable smoothies. I could do it again, but I’d like a little more variety this time. I got a new smoothie maker for Christmas, as the last one stopped working after the connectors near the motor ran out. I will mix in a few smoothies – spinach and kale, etc. - but I’ll try for a bit more variety of veg, and a bit more roughage too – solid veg and meat. I also don’t want to neglect the freezer food that I’ve already bought. I learned last time, it doesn’t last as long as you’d think. 

I was 72.2kg when I got back into my suits. I’m 81.5kg now. Let’s see where I am in a month’s time, but let’s carry on after that and see what happens.